i shouldnt be here

its 415am on what is now technically the first day of spring.
but not that you'd notice its now spring, the winter temps have been waaaaaay above what they should have been.
so technically its thursday
karens 50th party is fridaynight
i am supposed to "do somthign zo" with the photo's
what the hell i'm supposed to do with them only the wise and knowledgable ZOG knows

i shouldnt have just spent the last 2& half hours scrapBlog surfing
i should have either done the photo thing or cleaned the lounge
i shouldnt be blogging here and now
but i am
and i will
its thereputic
if no encouraging my spelling problem!

the well it finally finished.... i shall take some photo's later when the morning sun comes up

The great house hunt has started again- a "shortlist" of 20 houses in the "house book" now
& 14 open houses on saturday..... one or two look awesome everything seems either too cheap and not enought room or too expencive... nothign in between
i am at almost a bit of a loss i want the houses to either be completely separate or us up them down... in which case Leigh court makes most sense......being on a hill

on a side note had a dream about having and holding a baby, a girl, and for some reason we were living in my upstairs room at greenslopes sharing a bed had the room set up like a mini house , mark wasnt there as far as i knew maybe he was but i just didnt see him, someone big did take the baby from my arms, a very average sized but chubby baby wrapped ina BRIGHT magenta wrap
maybe i'm pregnant
maybe i am about to get pregnant
maybe my brain is just getting set into the "mummy mode"
which isnt my natural mode i'm not child friendly i know this i accept this
but its a mack truck hit in the guts, the realisation
i love this man and i know this because i want his babies